Thank you for the kind words! i am extremely lucky to have found Sir, and to have been able to get some training early in my life. i am glad i am on this path, and hope You continue to enjoy hearing about my experiences.
Sir said He has an increased workload at work now, so He won’t be able to provide as much daily supervision for me.
W/we did not get to talk much, but He did tell me to get to His house tomorrow as early as i could after work. This will be the first time i go to Sir’s house on a weeknight.
Sir had me exercise on the treadmill at the gym today, and i have to admit keeping a constant fast pace absolutely killed me. i am exhausted and worn out. i am thankful Sir is helping push my body to make it healthier.
Self-reflection: While i of course would love to talk to Sir more during the day, i have grown from when i first took to this blog to discuss not hearing from Sir. i have matured as a fag to understand my role better in Sir’s life, and i have learned not to expect anything from Sir. He doesn’t owe me anything, if anything i owe Him.
i am nervous for what tomorrow night will bring, especially if it is going to involve another torture session. Of course, i have no idea what Sir has planned. For all i know He is having me come, only to turn me away and send me home to prove He has that right as a Man.
Another way i can tell i have matured as a fag is i am fully okay not knowing what tomorrow night will bring. When Sir first started training me i would have asked Him a slew of questions to try and figure out the plans. Now, i realize it is not my place as a fag to question Sir’s wants and orders.
Something i have noticed on tumblr recently is a lot more written posts from fags/slaves and even Men. i am not sure if i have played any role or factor in this trend, but i am very glad to see other Men, subs, fags or boys share their thoughts and feelings about what they’re going through or seeking.
i hope it continue because it makes tumblr feel more like a community for a fag like me. i encourage any of y’all who have kinky thoughts or feelings to share them. i think you’ll be surprised by the response.
i was sitting down to pee at work this afternoon when this realization hit me. Even when i don’t hear from Sir, He is here.
Sir has set up my life through protocols and other means so that i am constantly aware of His presence even if W/we are separated by 50 miles.
Sir is there when i slouch or don’t stand up straight, making me remember that a fag should always show proper posture.
Sir is there when i think about using the urinal, helping reinforce the idea that fags don’t deserve the luxury of standing to pee.
Sir is there whenever i want to eat something sweet, reminding me that a fag should be pleasing to the eye.
Sir is there as i sweat, run and exercise, keeping track as He molds my body.
Sir is there as i type and proofread my evening reports, awaiting my thoughts and feelings about my day as a fag.
i am so thankful to have Sir in my life, and i am glad i have these constant reminders of Him. So even on days when i am of no use to Him or He is busy living the life of a Real Man, i know He is here watching me descend further into my faggotry.
Sir has ordered me to arrive at His house tomorrow evening at my earliest convenience between 5:30 pm and 7 pm.
i am excited to get to serve Sir so soon again, but i will admit i am a little nervous. This is the first time Sir has had me come to His house on a weeknight to serve, so i am not sure if it is due to a special situation Sir needs me for or if He just wants this fag to do things around the house for Him tomorrow night.
i know it is not my place to ask the plans, and i will find out in due time. And, of course, the details will be posted on here.